Friday, October 23, 2009

One Year Ago...

I was still pregnant. Today is the last ever day I'll be able to say that. My belly was huge and I was completely oblivious to the fact that I was already in active labor...I would find out later in the day at my 36-week checkup and it would stun me. But on this morning a year ago I was just enjoying my day off from work, padding around in a house that I hated and wondering if it would ever get finished and sold. I was holding my belly low on the left side, where I could feel Topher's hiccups at least once a day. I was running to the bathroom at least every 30 minutes and still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that I had a real, live, blinking baby inside of me. I wish back then I could have seen a picture of Topher now. I wish I could have seen what I was creating.
I'm going to be this many!
Today we are packing up and heading down to Kansas City to celebrate Topher's birthday with all 10 of his cousins. I went shopping for his presents last night and it surprised me how much I wanted to buy him everything. I'm usually not like that, but right now I feel like I want to give him the whole world. I settled on just a few fun toys, but as I was leaving I passed a clearance rack of diapers. They were all in his size, and all half off. Well, I couldn't pass that up so I bought every box they had. (I'm admittedly a bit of a diaper snob and will only use Huggies or--more rarely--Pampers, which we usually can't afford.) I think Topher had more fun with the big boxes than any other gift I could have bought him.
We've also recently discovered Topher's love of pillows. If you just throw a couple pillows on the ground, he will roll around, laugh, dive right in. It's adorable.
Topher, a year ago I had no idea who you were or what you would be like. Thank you for surpassing all our expectations and helping us become a little family. You went from being a bump in my tummy to being our universe, and we wouldn't have it any other way. We love you so much.


  1. like i've said before, your writing is so beautiful. :) I can't even imagine how wonderful it feels to be a mother, but you make me want to become one more and more. I hope Topher has a wonderful first birthday tomorrow, it will be the first of many great birthdays to come, I'm sure. :)

  2. It cracks me up that he is a size 4 in diapers. Sable just barely moved into size 4!

    I hate to tell ya Ms. Diaper Snob but Luvs are better than Huggies. We used Huggies ONLY for years, then moved on to some other brands when Huggies were just too expensive. Then I discovered Luvs with Sable. They are cheaper, thinner, and well just better. Now I can't stand Huggies! But I do really like their wipes which I converted to even though they are SO much more expensive. They are just too nice!

    We're excited to see you all tomorrow!
    Happy Birthday Topher!!!!!!

    luvs, aby